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Tuesday, November 26th, 2013
6:12 pm - Mini rant...you can ignore this
so....after a week or so of a boy being extremely flirty and super cute, we go on a date. fun things happen.
Then we see each other the next night, with all of our mutual friends, where he's still being cute and flirty around me. Until one of our friends steals his seat and tries to establish dominance as a friend(who hopes to become a bf but that's another tale of drama for another day)

day after that, we're still texting each other, still flirty. I performing at a show and he was suggesting not so subtly that i should ditch that and see him...I'm doing a show: I'm not leaving that but suggest he can come hang out with me and my comedy friends. no response. then I get a 330am i get a one word text "tisk" (wha?) I'm asleep so I don't see it til 7am the next morning.

ask him how his evening went yesterday and nada...not a thing....

THE FUCK?????

so what happened here??? seriously! UGH!

had to get this out in written form to make SOME sense of it.....it still doesn't make any sense....

guh

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Friday, February 15th, 2013
9:14 pm
so...its been awhile....i know. too much of everything and nothing has been going on at the same time. my agent finally got a hold of me for the first time in....months? I honestly can't remember.
Work has been altered...severely. I'm one of the few who made the cut, let's say...tough times.

things will be weird for a bit, but I supposed change is good.
it will be a new challenge and, apparently, I'm told I'm up for it.


so....here we go....

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Monday, May 28th, 2012
7:48 pm
so, I get to travel for work to the VERY glamourous Thunder Bay Ontario!
at least all my expenses will be paid. I have a feeling though that my co-workers are going to be surprised that I don't want to go clubbing there and am pretty quiet. I'm making sure to bring a few comic books to read just in case I can't sleep.

In other Pixie news(since my facebook doesn't reveal much of my personal life): I have a boyfriend. Its been a while, I know. I'm dating a nerd, but a great nerd. Hopefully this cheeriness doesn't affect my cranky comedy....

I'll be doing more shows once I get back. I really really feel the performer's itch right now. So I'll be time to hit the stage soon.

current mood: busy

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Friday, March 16th, 2012
8:41 pm
i haven't been out dancing in what seems like forever. all this sunshine and warm weather is having this odd positive effect on me...
and i've been convinced to get a little dressed up, which i never do for others, just for myself
tonight could be very interesting indeed

current mood: chipper

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Thursday, March 8th, 2012
7:16 pm
dating is weird.
boys are weird.
men are weird.

things are...weird.

but work is great! =)

current mood: curious

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Sunday, February 12th, 2012
4:55 pm
Ive been doing a lot of bitching on here about changes and changing.
I made one minor change, but its one in the right direction: I quit the Phoenix...for real this time. At the end of this coat-check season, I am done. Its not worth the verbal abuse and lack of Saturday nights and good night's of sleep.

Other changes still need to happen, time for me to start treating myself better.

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Saturday, February 4th, 2012
1:13 pm
This has been a fun/crazy birthday month/few weeks...
Although I still look 15, I'm not feeling like it any more. Maybe its the getting up for work at 6am everyday. Maybe.

Somethings really need to change in my life, better things so that I can move on in some ways.

There is definitely some writing that needs to be done. Coffee shops don't help, too many distracting sounds.
my place doesn't work, too much Kitten around.
So far one of my bigger inspirations for writing has been hanging out with girlfriends, something I haven't had in a really really long time. So many weird things come up that for me, its comedy gold. I obviously can't use all of it, as they are personal stories and I only like to exploit my own misfortunes for my work.

I seriously need to move...I know I've said it before, but I really really need to.

ok I'm done complaining? Is that what I was doing? because it wasn't quite venting per se....

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Monday, January 23rd, 2012
7:17 pm
well.....my birthday just took a very paranoid, ugly, scary turn....

someone i've told to leave me alone, that i want nothing to do with just sent me flowers for my birthday.
although they are beautiful, i do not appreciate the gesture. he wants me to like him again, and i have zero intention of any of that...
and he got my age wrong....

but i'm having a mini panic attack right now...hopefully this pizza will make it better

current mood: scared

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Wednesday, January 18th, 2012
8:07 pm - Late Nights/No Booze
Here's a convo I had with a dear and darling friend the other night. Usually, this would be drunk talk for most people...this is our sober talk

her: Chrrrrrrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiiisssss! Why is it so COLD OUT?!
me: Well, that's because its wintertime, the only cold time of the year.
her: Ok, yeah but why is it DARK OUT?!?!
me: Well, because it's night time dear. You see, the earth rotates around the sun...
her: Really?
me: Totally

current mood: giggly

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Friday, December 30th, 2011
4:30 pm
so Happy New Years everyone!
I'll more than likely be working (not more than likely, extremely likely...ok, definitely) at the Phoenix doing something or other...
This past year has been filled with highs and lows, let's just hope this new year comes with more highs than anything.
I'm not sure I've grown up at all this year, but I definitely have a different perspective on certain things. Priorities have changed, hopefully for the better....

i don't think the world will end at the 2012 winter solstice...just so you know. So I'm not rushing any decisions this year or rushing into anything....
I say that now....

current mood: optimistic

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Monday, December 5th, 2011
10:17 pm - huh...
Things are changing...
I got my hair cut, just a trim really. Its finally all one layer instead of the 3 trillion it used to be for the longest time.
I touched up my roots but its turned a much darker red than I wanted, almost a burgundy....its not the electric red I wanted or am used to. But I've been getting nothing but compliments...so I don't know.....I feel kinda weird looking "normal"
I'm on this extremely odd baking frenzy. I don't know why I want to bake tasty treats covered in icing and sprinkles for everyone, but I do....

I'm starting to enjoy being at home with friends or hanging out at a restaurant chatting with them than going to noisy bars and clubs and partying with them.
I'm tired of living in a basement apartment. I want either a condo/loft in Liberty Village or in my neighbourhood, or at least a better apartment. I love my place but I'm not in love with living in a basement anymore.
I want to be able to have friends over and not be embarrassed by my place being too small or too messy or too out of the way. I'd almost like to host a dinner party or have people over for a cocktail party or something of that sort but I almost feel like my place "isn't good enough".
I put up Christmas lights this year and made my own wreath. I thought about getting a tree but I have a feeling my cat would just eat it.

I'm either growing up or becoming domesticated, I'm not sure which.

current mood: curious

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Friday, November 25th, 2011
8:46 pm - Glittery
Ive been covered in glitter for the past 2 weeks due to Christmas window installations. Well worth it though, since all my managers love the displays Ive done and the outfits for mannequins ive picked. its so great to actually be able to do my "job".
So, Ive officially quit running Ein-stien's after, what?, 4 plus years of running it (or does it just seem that long?) It stopped being fun and really, that's why I ran the room in the first place. my last show is Dec 18th with a bunch of my favourite comics to pass through the show.
I'm also thinking of quitting the phoenix. the money is kinda nice and the free concerts are great but its really really not worth the irritation. I had so many nice friday and saturday evenings off to do, um, normal things like hang out with friends and go to the movies and such. I'll guess I'll decide in the new year whether to keep at it or not, because I don't need the money anymore, nor am I trying to meet too many new people.
Other than those life decisions, its been pretty un-dramatic, just the way I like it....ok, there has been some adventure but no drama, luckily =)
Time for a nice quiet evening in with Kitten purring beside me.

current mood: relaxed

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Saturday, November 5th, 2011
12:49 pm
so, here's something i thought wouldn't happen, even though its something my friends threaten me with.

after a friend of mine "sang my praises" to an gentleman friend of his, he has determined his friend and i would "really hit it off" and is determined to set us up.

I'm curious as to what praises he sung about. 'she really really good at simpsons trivia, i mean, she knows, like everything!"
I'm sure there are other things he said, but im always nervous what people say about me to others when they are complimenting me. The compliments are always very general and can never truly describe someone.
and i'm a hard person to describe as it is :p

so luckily, i think a "group thing" has been planned at some point so that there's no pressure.

i think ive only really been on 1 or 2 dates this year....im hoping this won't be weird or awkward.

there are times when i have a huge amount of confidence in my looks, personality and charm and then other times where i feel soooooooo awkward that there's no way i'm datable....

so, we'll give this a shot and see happens, because you never know....but knowing me and my luck, things may not turn out the way anyone plans

current mood: nerdy

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Sunday, October 23rd, 2011
12:20 pm
so, pretty sure my cold has caused my laryngitis...as has all the stupid kids who talk to me while i'm working coat check, arguing that our coat check tickets should not only have a number but their NAME on it just in case they lose their fucking ticket....thanks idiot now i have no voice. if it doesn't return tomorrow, im fucked for an amazing audition tomorrow....
i work way too much...its only for another week but still....fuck....
my voice is how i make money (well, the money i WANT anyway) this is the worst...
not the worst thing ever mind you...
still though...crud

current mood: annoyed

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Friday, October 14th, 2011
8:54 pm - Moving On
so, Ive decided to stop producing, booking and show running Ein-steins....I'm done...just utterly done...
Ive put a lot into a show that's given me so little back. Yes, i've learned a lot about performing but ive got bigger things to worry about now.
My day job is far more important than trying to book shitty comics who don't even know what common courtesy to tell me their names or learn mine before asking for a spot, or cancelling without even letting me know they've cancelled.
also, the "gentelman" (i use that very very lightly) who gave me the show in the first place has come back and is demanding stage time.
i'm sorry, but this isn't an ego thing, but everyone asks for stage time. i hate trying to cram another comic onto a show and having it go long...

plus, i work early-ish on monday's now and being hung-over bc i'm trying to drink the show away is not the best way to start a work week...

so, i quit......but i haven't quit comedy...just this show....i hope to produce a better one soon
my last show at einsteins is Dec 18th, starts at 8pm....just in case you were wondering

~Pixie

current mood: relieved

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Monday, September 12th, 2011
9:42 pm
so, ok....i'm not sure when my life decided to turn back into a soap opera, but it has....
so, doing my show on sundays like i always do (and will probably doomed to be doing forever) and luckily friends show up, hooray for fans!!!
but whom else shows up? 1 kinda expected and 2 i totally didn't.
so, here's what happened:
a buddy of mine whom i've dated before(just didn't work out, but we still totally have mini crushes on each other) and has shown up to the show before, but whom i haven't seen in months, pops in. cool.
another gentleman whom a girlfriend is trying to set me up with (MMA fighter, personal trainer) comes to the show and sends her texts thru-out the show about how he has a crush on me...cool.
then an ex shows up, really really out of the blue. I haven't talked to him in about 3 years or so, since we broke up. a ring was practically on my finger and he totally broke my heart. he's completely changed his physical image. all my friends at the show, including Buddy, could notice he was trying to be friendly and mildly flirty. Buddy seemed a little uncomfortable with situation, especially when my girlfriend dragged me off to talk to MMA fighter and all my dude friends and himn were left to talk to Ex....
Ex also makes a point of letting me know he's moved into my neighbourhood....i'm not interested in being back with him, but since we broke up on bad terms, at least a little civility would be nice...

so yeah....soap opera....it seems a lot can happen in 4 hrs.....
so yeah, who knows how ANY of this is going to play out...because i don't....

current mood: weird

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Sunday, September 11th, 2011
2:15 pm
i don't know why i'm letting really stupid shit get to me....i hate being ruled by my emotions (yeah, i get what a contradiction that is).
i always feel like i should be doing better or more...
i feel like i'm in such a slump...
i don't know, maybe i just need more encouraging friends and family members
maybe i shouldn't hang out with couples who are over-the-top with PDA to show everyone how happy they are, even when i know they aren't
mer....who knows....whatever....

current mood: apathetic

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Saturday, July 16th, 2011
5:07 pm - so this weirds me out...just a little
i don't know what type of image i'm projecting out there in the world, but it really, really ,really only seems to me that no one is interested in actually attempting a relationship with me. the only guys whove been hitting on me lately at shows, out and about with friends, um, at shows, are either too young and only want a 'summer romance' ie: lets fuck a whole bunch, then i won't call you again or they're married/about to be married/going to get engaged to their gf/have been with their gf forever and want to fool around because they've never gotten to/their gf/wife/fiance doesn't put out anymore. These guys i know not to waste any time on because they obviously won't leave their long-termy partners for a not-so-sure thing. and the young guys don't really know what star wars is...and that bother me...
and this has been going on for about 2 years....
so my only conclusion is that i'm super awesome to hang out with, funny, adorable,blah blah blah but that's it...even though everything is going great for me work wise and comedy wise and acting wise it doesn't seem like a partner just a plaything...its pretty discouraging...
just saying,
i know i shouldn't complain,i have nothing to complain about really...but, having not been in anything close to a real relationship in 2 years, kinda discouraging...

current mood: rejected

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Wednesday, April 27th, 2011
5:39 pm
who ever figured that cleaning out your inbox would become an actual chore.....
not me...

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Tuesday, February 1st, 2011
2:33 pm - ummm
i forgot i had one of these...so...does anyone still use this?

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